it is a small matter but i burst it to a big one;

induldge in a box of choco`


went out to bugis with them after sch
only the 5 of us as usual;
me, alan, dajie, junhao & chi foong.

went to grab bear bear again
a token into the machine
in my first grab i got a minkey n minnie wedding figure =D


then, we wanted to head home then we saw this 365 days bear with choco
i found my birthday de..


nth to blog as for now..
be back then..
see hOw bahs

once is enough
given a second chance is equal to nv change.
so what is the point??
cus' a leopard will nv change its spots.
i am sick of this!

Mrs Lee came to class.
she wrote things on the board,
like MILE Program to Japan, Building Seminar, KL study trip, Youth Leadership camp etc.
camps and trips.
but..*sad*
MILE is open only to Year 2 & 3 DPFM students.
Year 1 will go unless choosen or what..
Building Seminar is for Year 2 & 3 DPFM students.
Year 1 are welcomed.if seats are avaliable.
KL trip i want to..!
but doubt the girls are going =(
dajie got COM from her ite on the 6th. aww!!
Youth Leadership Camp are for those with good o levels results and at least a b3 for english =)
hahaha!!
nth lies ahead..!

got back our tests papers.
not a single A for me.
did rather well for CADD =)
Building Sc i got 75%.
i just touch the passing line for Building Mat.
talking about BMA.
my class is freaking d*** angry.

the senario took place at a certain classroom in a certain block of SP's School of BE at around 3pm...

the students of 1st year DPFM 1b21 n 1b22 just got back their BMA paper..
i was relieved that i manage to pass.
then as Mrs Lee was going thru the answer...
noises started to arise from my back
it was sound of protest!
students arent awarded the marks that they shud get
so assuming the qn is a 4 marks qn.
if u got the points to the qn correct - entirely correct, you will not get 4 but 3 and a half.
bottom line, u will nv get a full mark.
so assuming the total paper is upon 100, and a set of 25 qns in the paper itself.
u will only get 3. 5 x 25 qn = 87.5, which is the highest.
adeline top the class with 77
but the point i wan to mention here is STUDENTS WILL NV GET FULL MARKS!
den what is the point of us taking exams?

next prob.
qn 14(c) which is a 18 marks qn.
the 6 process of making concrete
LMF: if u name one process u will be awarded 3 marks.
i named out all the process but i only got 6.5 =
what makes me d*** angry was i named batching
batch by volume which was the correct and advisable method according to LMF's lesson.
i even name the proportion of 1:2:4:0.5
but I WAS GIVEN A BIG CROSS N A STRAIGHT ZERO!
whereas for bel, she wrote batch by weight which according to LMF is not the best method.
AND BEL WAS AWARDED 1.5 or 2 FOR TT QN!
everyone complained.
pointless effort!
she said she will chck.
she asked for our opinion..
Preston got so pissed off that he took his bag and ran out of class.
she said she will chck with the other lecturers in this case the markers.
she said some markers are strict, some are lienient.

in my opinion,
the marker who marks for qn 11 shud not look into qn 11 again but other qn.
IF THERE IS A CHECK ON THE PAPERS AGAIN!
alan asked me why i did not raise this point up jus now when LMF asked.
sihui: do u tink they will ever consider what we said?
i mean it is pointless..
the le*tur*s will eventually helped one and another.
i duno why, but i just got this bad image of them.
since my term test week when one of them gave me attitude, if u guys saw tt post!
argh!!
not all are tt bad, but a handful is that nice, not like others!!
=
whatever will be will be.
my mind is flooded with what LMF said,
" the sch system dun accept full marks"
LOL!
WTS!!

hais..

had dinner with dajie, alan n junhao at Lau Pat Sat.
we had cockles, hokkien mee, carrot cake, mee goreng, veggies, claypot chicken n hor fun!
i ate 13 cockles.=x
walked to merlion park
took photos there.
den strolled down to esplanade.
n headed home.
the breeze is nice.
cooling than ever.

i just want to be alone.
i am sick of all these.
tired of all these craps.
poly is getting worse than i had imagine it is.
crappy day!!

i am bored`

1.Annabel
2.Alicia
3.Lizhen
4.Shu Hui
5.Mei Ting
6.Justina
7.LingWei
8.Jessilyn
9.Joan
10.Alan
11.Jun Hao
12.Deziree
13.Yong Xin
14.Xinglin
15.Xuewen
16.Yvonne
17.Rina
18.Nicole
19.Hui Xin
20.JieYi

1. How did u meet #14?
Met in sch 2 years agO`
2.What could you do if you had never meet #1?
never knew sumone had such a unique laughter=x
3.What will you do is #20 & #9 date?
they will date each other out for shopping!!
4.Would #6 and #17 makes a good couple?
nO!! they are ordinary people
5.Describe #3?
joker!
6.Do you think #8 is attractive??
ya..with her laughter too!
7.Tell me something about #7?
her laughter is oso another unique one =)
8.Do you know anything about #12 's family?
ya. she got 3 brothers=X i am a frequent visitor to her house=x
9.What is #8 favourite?
sOmeone`
10.What would you do if #11 confess to u?
he got a girl!!
11.What language does #15 speaks?
RENFU LANGUAGE!!
12.Who is #9 going out with?
my didi - JunWei
13.How old is #16 now?
same age as me!! 18 years n 12 days!!
14.When was the last time u talked to #13?
ytd`
15.Who is #2 favourite singer?
Wang Lee Hom?
16.Would you date #4?
out`
17.Would date #7?
out`
18.Is #15 single?
yes
19.What is #10 last name?
Jing Rui=x
20.Have you ever consider a relationship with number #19?
haha..we have been in sister ship for years=)
21.What schools did #3 enter?
swiss cottage sec` =x
22.Where #6 stay?
khatib
23.what is your favourite thing about #5?
her silly looks can bully!=x
24.What do you think of #18?
she is my sister! so sweet n understanding
25.What do #4 & #19 hav in common?
born in dec??
26.What special qualities does #17 hold in ur life?
ver special

do this really out of boredom`
was blog hoping den saw this den copy!

*on the phone*

happy 18th birthday to ROYSON!!

went out with sapphire today, along with jiayi` =)
to celebrate yongxin's birthday in advance.
at kbox!!


xinglin n dez

the birthday girl`

xuewen

when everyone got high!!

didnt take much pics..=x
anyway, went to bugis then
they bought bag had early dinner at pastamania.

these few days felt so sick
suffering from neck pain and body pains=x
wad happen!!??

sch starting in days time yet i had not complete my ECTP drawing=x
hmm.. had been drawing with microstation.
look thru my 3d notes yet i cant get any idea wad is it all about=x

Round of 32 ended.
Round of 16 starts tonite.
cheers to the 16 teams =)
GERMANY.ECUADOR.ENGLAND.SWEDEN.
ARGENTINA.HOLLAND.PORTUGAL.MEXICO.
ITALY.GHANA.BRAZIL.AUSTRLIA.
SWISS.FRANCE.SPAIN.UKRAINE.
the champ is one of the grp
who shall it be??
the result is on 10 jUly=)
lahlahlah`

germany vs ecuador later.
hee=D
shall see!!
no no no..is must see!!

everyone is so bless by their loved ones.
envy*
silly and her untold story`
=x

tired`
seeking for more sleep.

listening to : Lene Marlin - Unforgivable Sinner

went out to woodlands lib to do my floor plan.
first time i felt i am so clever with microstation =x
i nv knew i koe so much abt mircostation.
thinking that few days down the road i will be using
my dear microstation to do 3D.
aww!!
how can i do well with 3d when my 2d sucks?
*opps*
but seriously,doing floor plan is better than creating n forming those shapes or model
aww!!

done with the floor plan,
us got restless and finding places to go.
where?
where?
where?
i wan to go to bishan.
but it is not accessible for bel.
jun wants to go to jurong point
not accessible for dajie.
dajie wants to go to kovan
which is not accessible for jun,alan & bel.
then my dearest dajie picked newton.
so we headed down,
intend to have our early dinner there.
but upon arriving, we got lost
thankful of the map, we found the place.
then again, to our dismay,
it is under renovation!!!
then, its ok =x
bel left home.
the 4 of us went to far east for dinner.
light dinner for me`

walked ard.
window shop ard.
was looking at one shirt
alan came forward to me and said,
"are u buying?"
me: no..jus looking ard.
alan: den dun touch!!
i was like diao`

saw a FCUK shirt with a cow n a england flag
love it to bits!
the size is either s or xs.
shud tried fitting into s.
$49`
picking money from my hongbaos x_x
then again,
mr alan came..
alan: excuse me miss, are u buying?
me: no. just seeing the price.
alan : then dun touch! *giving me a fierce stare*
me: diao"
alan: imaging a saleperson did that.
me: he will not recieve any GEMS cards.!
LOL~

went home alone.
bored to death - the journey went.
took me 30 mins home.
reached home.
quarrel with my mum
it is just that i am stil full.
not in a need to eat for that moment.
she kept asking me to eat.
i am not hungry.
so supposely, she will eat herself first.
there she ate herself.
then she asked again'
there was my respond.
45 mins later, i was hungry.
i asked her to cook.
there was plain porridge.
so i had porridge, luncheon meat, egg and chicken for dinner.
as i was eating.
"call u eat dun wan to eat. now u wash the plates urself. create trouble for me.."
i was like what the.
i am not hungry as i had told u.
hais..
i dunO..mayb is my fault.
had been in foul mood today
i dunO why.
hais..


sch startin next week.
aww!!
i need a longer break badly
hmm..
sentosa anyone?
bowling anyone?

trust.
the word i am toking about it now.
trust is all i need to hold on that promise`
162 days n in counting..

things just cum at the wrong time.
things just cum at the wrong time.
things just cum at the wrong time.

wanna thnks dan for doing up this blogskins for me.
is green!! =)

went out with mich for a movie - SLITHER!
horror n nice
*thumbs up*
censored!!
lOl~
7.5 i shall grade this..
oh dear!! 3 movies in 2 weeks..
what's up nxt?
-Pirates of the Carribean?
-R.V?
-Superman Return?
-Scary Movie 4?

hmm..
no mood to think about anything now.

*promise*

things jus cum at the wrong time.
things jus cum at the wrong time.
things jus cum at the wrong time.

staring blankly at the comp, i am helpless of what to write.
maybe abit of blogging do help me to cool down
the tears that envelopes in my eyes.

felt dark clouds formed above me,
i am still the me i am abt a year ago.
or maybe i am always THAT ME!
the one that nv ever ever change before.
the stubborn sihui;
the pessimistic me;
the sensitive me.
feeling so insecure abt everything that is running around me
my head is spinning in a whirlpool
i cant stop my wild imagination of thoughts.
my tots came crashing with one another like cars on the busy streets without giving any signal n the cars went bonkers.
my heart cried in silence.
dead silence in this room
i am slowing down my speed down this lane
thinkin abt the days...
it aches to think.
guilty to reflect.
u means sumtink to me`

i just dun wan to hide anything from a very good fren of mine.
so i blurted out whatever i want to say
which in the turn, bring hurt n anger to my fren; guilt lies in me.
maybe i shudn say` at all!!
my heart freeze when u gave me that ignorance tone.
ignorance kills!!
and i agree to a certain extend.

neither do i wan anything of that to happen again
it is empty in those days
no laughter no jokes no one to crap with me like u do.
afraid to go home just now,saw a reflection of what happen a few weeks ago
that "cold-war" period when each tot the other was angry.

my special fren..
sumtimes i stop n wondered,
how long will this last?
like u say before, frens cum n go.
i am still thinking..
deep in tot*

before i forget,
thnks rina,Jieyi,nicole, joan n xin* for the cookies =)
huGs*
thnks sapphire for the tigger cushion.
thnks slayers n oso huda for the unknown presents which i will be recieving soon =)
=x

went to do e-learning for CS & Buildin Mat.
dead boring.
in the end, we got restless and set for a game of monopoly=x
went to bugis to find ah yann n jolie with jun & alan
jun n alan had dinner there, while the 3 girls went shopping n head home.

was taking photos with jolie's cam.
felt that me n ah yann are like lesbian.
=x
it is not those photos u guys tink we will be taking.
smiling all the way..
nonono!!
wrong wrong wrong!!
*censored*

was goin to pack my dinner home
when i saw this girl outside mos.
she looked like shi ning.
but jolie said she doesnt
maybe i am thinking too much or i just plainly miss her`

haiis..
things just happen.
cannot judge its books by its cover.
he might seems nice to us, but he is crafty
i AM not HERE to b**** abt anyone lar.
but really, in life u have to face it
ppl are going ard doin things that might seems nice to u but infact they are gaining their own ____.whatever words u wan to say..
haiis..

things left undone:
i. CADD floor plan
ii. building materials report
iii. builiding materials mini-project
iv.sakae!!
v.SHOPPING!!

i need a new bag badly!!
that $69 baggy!!
shud i rebond again?
aww!!
wad the shyt i am tinking again.
wasting money!! =x

using sorry the word to end my entry for today.
SORRY!

happy birthday to myself n vOnne!!

wanna thnks the following ppl for wishing me =)
in a chronological order:
before 13 jUne
sirat.annabel.chifoong.
After 12am
junjie.karen.xuewen.yvonne!!.simonejie.
rina.alicia.zhining.rJ.jieyi.derrick.henderson.huda.royson.
adeline.aiman.keeyong.huixin.junhao.weekorkor.
Justina.Jessilyn.ZhangHuikor.Hannah.Deziree(ah yann).
my two precious cousins-Bing n Ying
Alan.ShuHui.Lizhen.Han Ping.Guan Lian.Preston.Yuyu.Daniel.
as of from now.
=]
not forget those who drop me testi =x

he wans to be the first one to wish me.
that's fine.
there he got it.
been the first to wish me last year and this year..

went out to celebrate my birthday with the girls..
had lunch at pastamania n catch a movie-bench warmers
nice!!




my birthday cake~
thnks da-jie n alan for tt!


what am i dOing!!??
biting the candle!=x

just complete sum things.
and i dun feel like giving it out.
hmm..d*** myself'
hais.
maybe it is nt worth readin after all
who cares abt that list of things.
it doesn matter to anyone.

the presents which the girls gave :
a necklace n a braclet =)


i love sPdC! *muaCks~*
thnks girls!! *hUgS*

this is my story..

i am falling sick again.
headache & back pain
i need a good massage` =)
or maybe a warm bath ;)

maybe silly is right,
i shud be taking care of my health.
not drinkin much water lately,
lips are dry.
feeling cold out of a sudden.
mum commented that my body is gettin weaker
yeah i agree.

i am feeling cold.
i need warmth
the warmth i had in ur arms.

2 more days and i m 18`
wanna watch slither.

it is rated the m18 show!!
haha!

vonne, u r not forgotten.
my twinny who is turning 18 on the same day as i do!!
lurve u!!

i am bored.
dead boring at home.
i wan to do sumtink i like.
shopping!!
GSS is on for me n the rest on wed =)
goin out then.
but i dun wan stuck at home for just another 1 day.
aww!! bored to death even before i got 18!!

holiday is meant to be relax.
but i am not AT ALL!!

hmph!
thinking a way out of this moody state.

broke my own record for sleeping so late : 2aM
was chattin on the phone.
suppose to b slping n preparing myself for the next day presentation
but i lay on my bed with the lights off
hOggin on the phone in one hand,
and tigger in another
for twice in a week.
tOkin on the phone turns to b habit for me nOw..
walking toward bel's footsteps =x
*nO offence*

today was our cs presentation.
the girls wore very simple
and i had to admit my class guys look nice in long sleeves
so is like most of the guys wore quite formal except wan n ghaz.

had lunch at seoul garden
with jun, ting, alan, fOong n mum chee
went ard.
suppose to be a surprise but maybe i am tOo clever=x
okok..
alan said he wanted to buy things for bel
but actually, is for me..
so gt exposed.
den spotted this watch tt i had been craving fOr.
$10 - cheap n nice=)

after which, jun n mum chee left
4 of us went for a movie - the omen
very scary.
6.5/10 tt i shud giv.
i am timid! and i screamed twice durin the movie
=x

anyway, the world cup is knockin on the dOor in an hour time
german vs cOasTa.
ballack is out of the game

turning 18 in 4 days time.
recieved my first birthday present =)
sO what's in on tues??
hais..dunO..

i am tired..
but i need tO stay up to 12am and so for for the match =]

bless me`
SILLY is my name.

did my cs project in sch with bel n cia.
in the end, we did nth much
bel was caught hoggin on the phone with sumone again!
while i was onlining chattin with cant-rmb who.
while cia gt so "pissed" n distracted that the 3 of us got online n did nth for the cs project.

well well, at least i put the HOUGANG town council logo up
and resize the pics, change a few words & add in the contact for HTC.
haha.
at least i did more things den bel=x

after which,
join dez.yann to her dad's place for a few games of bowling.
my ball is with jun..so had to use house ball lar..
first 2 games was like erm..
gt 4 straight zerOs again..
total we played 5 games.
so my score board was
84 83 136 97 130.
i was on cloud nine!!! finally gt 130+
first time..!!
maybe this only cums one in a blue moon =(
sihui, mus gambatee!!

and i had been missing 2 trainings..
due to the term test n this week.. erm..
hais..

6 more days lar..
alan asked me what i wan..
eRm.. i jus told hIm i jus want england to win the world cup
and it will be a very good present =x
hais..
by the time, it is a very belated one..
haha


anyway, last nite i made sumone sad =(
hais..sorry is the word bah..
hope tt person understand.
it is just a memory that will nv be erased.
=)

gtg soon for my breakfast!! =]

it all ended well with fun!!
sembtwo was awarded with best costume n runner up for the choreograph part.
below are the pics that i tOOk.=)

Outside Images of Singapore

during the parade

dez's hair.


after parade

the combine band.

sapphire.5!!! lurbe u girls!

xinglin n me.

my 2 ke ai de jrs -madeline n xinglin
look like two sec 1 kids rite=x
act-to-be-clarinetists! =x


after which, meiting n chifoong came..
den we suppose to watch musical foundation
but it was packed..so we went walking ard.
there, it was a fire show..=x



and guess wad the 3 of us did..
laming ard the monorial station at the ferry terminal.

we are waiting for train or taxi???

at airport? she waitin for her burnei!!
me? i dunO who m i waiting for?=x

on the way hOme


and i went home alone.
as usual, alone*

the first of every month doesn mean a thing now.
days just faded past.
and then i reliased 1st of June had passed by
it is not only Jieyi's birthday.
but our 10th month.

maybe i was too engrossed in my tests that i forgot abt it.
just like what happen on 1st of nov last year,
i was busy studying that i forgot abt the date.
i was thankful that he nv blame me
he understood that i was too busy with the O.

i dreamt i was with him this morning.

till today,
some people do not know its over between us.
they asked me abt him.
all i could answer was, "we had broke up, i think he doing fine in NP."
this was not as hurting as the day u walked on me
and sending me the sms that reads, "happy breakup one month!"

maybe like what the birthday girl ytd told me,
"dun think, its over.."
she reminded me abt the sentence that always hung around my mouth.
dont' ponder on the relation that nv return.

i am sorry, nicole
to trouble u on ur birthday itself.
and maybe i shud listen to her and my classmates.
it just a maybe.
i will only define my own happiness in 6 months time starting from 16 aPr.

my frens had persistanly remind me that there is one guy around.
thanks alan n jun for keep mentioning his name to me everyday in class.
and alicia n bel for giving me advices when i am drowned in the soup of mixed feelings.
Nicole n Yi too =)

gOt tO gO to meet ivy
for balloon hat!! =]







when i am sad,
i just wan to sing till my voice sore,
i just wan to draw till my pencil break,
i just wan to dance till i am dizzy,
i just wan to cry till i am blind.
dun stop me!

ok back to my own blogging.
tests are on this weekfirst,
mon was for Building Sc.
it was olright actually,
hopefully can get at least a 60%

i hope*gOt CADD aka mircostation on tues,
it was a shyting paper and a shyting day!
i mus empasis on the word shyt"
cus it is d*** shyt!
first sumone gave me attitude like i owe her money!
dun wan teach den dun teach lar..
say i nv pay attention in class.
preston asked her sumting..
she tok to him like gf and bf toking.
what the shyt!
den alicia ask her, she oso giv abit of attitude
what the F***!
nv see such a person in SP before.
what up next, i tripped and fall while gOin to take alan's bag.
hais. now knee cap is red!! argh!!

wed had ECTP.is her again!
she is _____. fill in ur blanks.
blaming us for the things we nv did.
giving info that is nt clear.i dun care..
i m jus bomming mad that i stare at her
i was like WTF!
why mus she put the blame that is us and nt her favourite ppl making the noise.
d*** her!

tOday we had Law
'shud be ok.
but then i really duno if i had make a mistake in offer & accpetance.
let fate decide.
i am still bOOming mad with her.
hmm.PMS again=x

had pizza hut in sch with the 12 of us
me.alica.bel.shuhui.ting.lizhen.lurvies.adeline
alan.chifoong.munchee.preston
total bill : $105.20 =)
laming ard after lunch, as usual.cracking jokes!
bel as usual that innocent when we tOk abt tHose yellow jOkes=x
hahas.

last paper tmr.
Building materials.let's gambatte!!
*smell the scent of holiday drooling nearby*
its me n my birthday=x
hais.will it be a unforgetable one??
o.O


wishing that the 12 of us to be tgt again.
maybe is due to test week and we are separated.
maybe i m tOo sensitive abt it.
we are always tgt for lunch =)


is the k-box session still on?





is me n myself.all alone*